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Normally when you see me on my blog, my hair is freshly washed, down and curled. My makeup is on fleek and my clothes are new and clean. If you saw me in my day to day look, you would find something very different. Most days I haven’t showered, and if I did shower, I most likely did not wash my long, long hair. If you knew me pre Mamahood, you wouldn’t even recognize me. I always dressed up and would shower twice a day – once in the AM before work, and once before I hit the night scene. I clearly remember my sister Beth telling me…just wait till you become a mom, you will go days or even a week without a shower. I brushed her off thinking…pssh, that would never happen to me. And it didn’t really until Charlotte became mobile.
I LOVE getting ready – my hair and makeup time is when I am most happy and totally in my zone. It’s weird because the part that comes after that is the most stressful… getting dressed. I could sit for hours upon hours just playing around with my makeup and hair. It has always been a hug part of what makes me feel like myself. I am even that friend who does everyone else’s makeup, curls their hair, and even colors it. So for me, to go from full on glamazonian mode to frumpy stay at home mom is making a huge U-turn.
Being a Mama has changed me in ways I never thought it would. I never thought I could be so in love with someone and so stressed at the same time. I am always worrying about her. Is she talking enough for her age? Is she watching too much TV? Has she eaten enough today? Will the Army life affect her? Does she know and feel all the love we have for her? Have we given her everything we can? Would she benefit more at a daycare with other kids to play and learn with?
My mind never stops thinking of her, I always worry if I am being a good mom. I guess that is what anxiety and unconditional love gets you. She has completely taken over my life, I don’t know who I am without her. What did I do with my life before her? She has made me a better person, and I love her dearly for that. She has made me realize that life is more important than just having fabulous hair and looking your best all the time. It is ok to go to the store with my hair in a Mama bun and no makeup on my face. Wow, I really sound like a grown up…scary.
I do sometimes miss the way my life was pre-baby, it was so much simpler then. I miss things as simple as showering and going to the bathroom ALONE. What is that like? Being able to work as many hours a day as I wanted without feeling like I am doing something wrong. I loved being my own person and doing what I wanted whenever I wanted. I definitely live vicariously through my blog when it comes to my looks. I rarely have anywhere to go that would require the hair, makeup, and clothing I love. For now, I will just have to welcome those chances when they come, as few and far between as they are. During the rest of the days of the year, I am completely OK with embracing the Mama hair don’t care look!
Christine says
I think you look completely FAB!!! Honestly, you are looking way better than I am most days, without children, ha! I know how frustrating it must be to not have that time anymore, but, you will have that time again! Just remember how beautiful you are!!!!
Marissa says
LOVE this post Whit! I’m at the same stage now. Mama hair piled on the top of my head every day, gym clothes or pajamas, practically makeup free. As I type this I realize i didn’t take a shower today, but i have a glass of wine and am relishing the alone time so i don’t really want to waste it on showering, lol! I end up buying outfits i love only to wear them ONCE a year, lol. oh well, you lose something you gain something better! You look gorgeous either way, girl! XO