So, it’s been about a month since I gave you a little life update. Things were definitely on the up and up then. We found out John was accepted to a new job, we knew when he was starting school for this new job, we even knew where our next post was after the school was over. Well, as of right now, everything has been turned upside down and put on hold. This week I had planned on packing up our lives and moving back to the Midwest, but now all those plans have been canceled. John’s class date was moved back until the first of the new year. Sooooo, we won’t be moving this week. John’s leave was supposed to start today! Ugh. We were going to be home with our family for the holidays. I was so looking forward to spending Thanksgiving at John’s mother’s, and Christmas with my family in Illinois. I guess that is just life in the Army. They say when, where, and how long, and we just have to figure out how to roll with it.
Rolling with it is not something I am good at. Because of my anxiety, I’m not so good with plans getting changed or canceled at the last minute. Especially without having a say in the matter. Ever since we found out the class was canceled and rescheduled, I have been overwhelmed with stress.
We didn’t even know if we would have somewhere to live since we had already ended our lease for our house. Not to mention, calling all of my family and friends and having to explain yet AGAIN that the Army had made other plans for us. That was so stressful, I am really close to my Mom and having to call her and my Dad and tell them I wouldn’t be back home anytime soon was a nightmare for me. Now to put the cherry on my not to great cake we don’t even know if we will be heading to Fort Knox anymore. But like I said in my last update post- “knowing the Army, that could change at anytime” and it has. Hopefully we will find out sometime this week where we are heading again. It may still be Knox and the information just needs to be updated in John’s file. I am hoping that is the case. I have been so overly homesick lately, and the fact that I’m not sure if we are moving closer to home really freaks me out. Sometimes I think I am really not cut out to be an Army wife. Until I left, I never knew how much I wanted to be close to family and friends from back home. I think having Charlotte made all of that a little more clear. I really want her to grow up being able to see her family whenever she wants. I want to be able to see them whenever I want too. But for now, all I can do is hope we get a duty station closer to home and cherish the time we have with our friends here in Georgia.
Speaking of my friends here…I have been so depressed and not wanting to do anything and I feel terrible about it. I have just wanted to stay in and do nothing all day. I feel so bad for not returning calls or texts and canceling plans. I’ve just been a wreck after all this craziness. I feel like I had already mentally prepared myself to move, leaving behind everything here in Georgia. It’s so hard to make a life somewhere new – making friends that become family just to pick up and leave after a couple years. It’s heart breaking to have to say goodbye and I guess I have just been trying to distance myself from our life here so it doesn’t hurt so bad when we do end up moving.
But things will get better…they always do. After the storm, the sun always comes out. I just need to get myself together and move forward.
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romper[american eagle] similar here & here //bracelets[express][express]//necklace[forever21]//earrings[express]//shoes[lillyskloset] //bag[michael kors] similar here// lipstick color honeylove [mac]//photo credit [amy hess photography]
Jasmine says
Love that romper. So pretty. Im sorry about all the last minute changes the military did. Reasons I give military wives props for dealing with that. I couldnt.
Whitney says
It is a mess sometimes!
Madelaine says
You look beautiful and I am obsessing over those fringed shoes. I love it!
Whitney says
Awe thank you! They are on sale right now!
Allison Gallagher says
Those shoes are fabulous…I need them!
Whitney says
They are on sale right now too!
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Whitney says
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